August 29, 2014 @ 8:35 a.m.
I want to learn to dance. Part of it is to impress girl/women, I guess. Part of it is because it just keeps calling me. But I admit that I'm scared. Its easy for me to sit here and think that I can just go out on the dance floor (maybe that "go out" part should be eliminated. LOL "Go out on a limb", "Go out of bounds"...). Maybe not the best. But you know what I mean.
The reason I put this here, about learning to dance, is because to have a change, or better life, or see something better in my life I have to change some element(s) of it. Make sense? Can't have a change for the good without a change. lol And dancing seems to be a change for ME.
Now I must go. Gotta brush teeth (ewww) and see if I can catch some cool things on film for our church. I want to present the changes (not to beat that word up) that we have made in our offices that we are building and I want to present them in film/pictures in a movie-style. Think that will be good? ;-)
August 30th
Ahhh, here we are again. Dancing in tonight at JT's. Will I be there. Probably not. I do like THE THOUGHT of dancing, but not the sludging through it at the country dance club to learn the moves from young senior citizens. Is that bad of me?
I struggle with the wanting to learn, but do I really just like the thought of it vs. am I over-thinking it and running from the experience... Shut up! ;-)
1 September 2014 9:42 p.m.
I feel a little hypocritical here. I ask people to do things, to grow. I would ask YOU to grow, that only by doing things, as Tony Robbins calls it - massive action- will you grow, and then I don't go down the road to a dance place to dance.
But one thing I did notice, that I want to tell you! I found out tonight that when I don't go down the road and take care of this need, to at least BE with people, that I feel more closed up. And I don't like that. More motivation, that what THAT is! YEA! So, next week.
I could go to a dance in Liberty, SC this Thurs, but again, I'm scared. Walking into a room full of people I don't know to dance with women I don't know...Swhoooo. LOL I'm working on it.
I have a friend who says, "Dance like there is no one watching becasue they're not. They're talking on their cell phones." Its more like, though, the woman I'm dancing with. And who am I to make conversation when I'm sitting at the table and what do I say to you. I don't really care too much about what's going on in your life unless yoiu are TRYING TO GROW! Yea, like I am (self-righteous Lol). And do you want to know that I am not working and that I am trying to find a job....and let's just dance... Lol
Have a good night. :-)
p.s. The good thing is that I feel some accountability now. Putting this out to you....
2/7/2015
didn't go this week. Just felt more like staying at home and practicing guitar. staying in myown space. Amazing no other men came thursday night. Wassup with them??
2/10/15
I have noticed that you are reading this blog. I think it is attached to another one about learning to play the guitar. Please take a look at it too and see what you think! :-) Maybe you have thoughts to add! :-)
